Rage

Summer 2022

Hope isn’t meant to be blind to the sad and aggrevating state we've left this planet and our humanity in. The environment is fucked, it’s been fucked and we continue prioritizing value created by the people, animals and trees we commodify over the value created by genuine, long-term, not delusionaly perpetual and infinitely expanding, peaceful prosperity of our race. It’s ironic that I sound like a fucking hippy, and so WHAT, maybe if we didn’t villanize, feminize or infantilize care, if we didn’t enslave ourselves to some dystopian reality we’re inching towrds, locking ourselves to, things wouldn’t be so bad. Self and coorporate interest is metastisizing on the dumb fucking faces of power hungry, miopic and communally blinded people. Humanity fucking SUCKS. We privatize natural resources and sell it back to the hungry, we privatize ‘security’ and profit from locking away any face we’re too fucking stupid to recognize as our own. We’re racist, despondant. We’re too blinded, too stupid, too careless and idly subordinate to a system that enslaves us with a paycheque and a screen echoing back the same BULLSHIT WE KNOW IS FUCKING US UP. But we don’t mind, I think deep down humanity hates itself, I think it wants to die in a burning world, saved by the same brands and logos that set it on fire just to sell us the water that puts it out. I think we hate ourselves so much that any face that isn’t like ours is deemed alien…. You’re an immigrant? OH WELL the stupid fucking groundhogs said go back to where you came from. Too bad those same assholes burned your country down in the first place. Get rid of all those foreigners while you’re at it, even if they’re in their own home. You’re not welcome where you live because they want your land, you’re not welcome where they live because you don't speak the same hypocritical white tongue, you don’t slither like they do, you’re not self-absorbed as they are, you don’t understand the marvel of conquering, more and more, so much more until their bellies pop and their whole society crumbles to the ground. We’re fucking racist. OHHHH we’re so damn sexist too. I overheard a moronic fuck the other day, a woman hating, mother fearing, self-concious and ignorantly insecure shell of a man justifying male supremacy in a society by quoting some bogus eugenic study on the intellectual supremacy of men compared to women. The world is filled with small dicked men who ravage just to feel their chests expand. AND I’M ONE OF THEM AHHH. Fuck Israel. Fuck China for their ENSLAVEMENT of Muslims, fuck the corrupt leaders of nations selling the souls of millions for a quick buck. Fuck the pupeteers who hide in plain sight, and fuck the slimy fat cats they own. Fuck your guns and your military complex, fuck your populist and racial supremacist progaganda machines who pose as the ‘state’. Fuck your double refugee standards, your stupid fucking neurosis and mechanistic drive to perpetuate a pipe dream that you, the children of the west, and the rest of you power hungry mice among men, that YOU are the “SALVATION” of the world you tear apart; that your civilization will usher in a new age that has nowhere else to go but the bottom of the fucking ocean. Fuck your correctness. Fuck this insult to our humanity, fuck all of you, fuck ME, fuck ever last one of us. We don’t deserve this planet, we don’t deserve each other, we don’t deserve the care that some marvellous humans try to put into this hemorrhaging world, the pyre that humanity has kept going for millinea, the love they sustain and the love that sustains them. We don’t deserve any of it. We don’t deserve what’s out there. Ha, the final frontier, that’s laughable. We can’t even see past our noses, and for some, past our big insatiable fucking bellies. Fuck it All. Fuck every single one of you fucks with no remorse. 

Goodnight.

3 Poems against Tyranny

The Night Has a Thousand Eyes

The night has a thousand eyes,

And the day but one;

Yet the light of the bright world dies

With the dying sun.

The mind has a thousand eyes,

And the heart but one:

Yet the light of a whole life dies

When love is done.

― Francis William Bourdillon

Ozymandias

I met a traveller from an antique land,

Who said—“Two vast and trunkless legs of stone

Stand in the desert. . . . Near them, on the sand,

Half sunk a shattered visage lies, whose frown,

And wrinkled lip, and sneer of cold command,

Tell that its sculptor well those passions read

Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,

The hand that mocked them, and the heart that fed;

And on the pedestal, these words appear:

My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings;

Look on my Works, ye Mighty, and despair!

Nothing beside remains. Round the decay

Of that colossal Wreck, boundless and bare

The lone and level sands stretch far away.”

― Percy Bysshe Shelley

Jabberwocky

’Twas brillig, and the slithy toves

      Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:

All mimsy were the borogoves,

      And the mome raths outgrabe.

“Beware the Jabberwock, my son!

      The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!

Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun

      The frumious Bandersnatch!”

He took his vorpal sword in hand;

      Long time the manxome foe he sought—

So rested he by the Tumtum tree

      And stood awhile in thought.

And, as in uffish thought he stood,

      The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,

Came whiffling through the tulgey wood,

      And burbled as it came!

One, two! One, two! And through and through

      The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!

He left it dead, and with its head

      He went galumphing back.

“And hast thou slain the Jabberwock?

      Come to my arms, my beamish boy!

O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!”

      He chortled in his joy.

’Twas brillig, and the slithy toves

      Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:

All mimsy were the borogoves,

      And the mome raths outgrabe.

― Lewis Caroll

Top 14 Favorite Sarah Wagdy (a.ka. Swagdy, Swagdon) Quotes

1. “This dunya is a test as much as it is a temptation and the only form of grounding is found within Allah be it through prayer, dhikr, the pursuit of ‘ilm – every person is different and has a different ‘soft spot’ for deen if you will. “

2. “Live poetically not just productively.”

3. “The most anti-capitalist protest is to care for another and to care for yourself. To take on the historically feminized and therefore invisible practive of nursing, nurturing, caring. To take seriously each other’s vulnerabilities and fragility and precarity, and to support it, honor it, empower it. To protect each other; to enact and practice community. A radical kinship, an interdependent sociality, a politics of care.”

4. “Adulthood is more solo and if you fall asleep driving (metaphorical) the car will just crash, there’s no more crew in the back to wake you up.”

5. “Feel everything or nothing at all.”

6. “Detatch yourself from the orbit of creation.”

7. “Can’t be spitting barz but practicing filth.”

8. “The hardest parth in letting go, is deciding you should.”

9. “Amateur comes from the latin word ‘amare’ which means to love. Just simply doing something for the love of it.”

10. “Conversations that make both parties feel like they’re playing with lego blocks are my favourite.”

11. “I wish earth was more like a library. Ppl speaking in soft voices on the streets everything shared and borrowed.”

12. “Desire is a contract that you made with yourself to be unhappy until you get what you want.”

13. "Life lives through you when u decide u are born to live it’s all in the brain then it actualizes by subconscious behavior directed by the mindset shift."

14. "True attention is alway fresh, never monotonous; you look at the same thing and see something different each time. You're always going deeper."