Music and Feels

Yassin told me to go on more walks without music, listen to the sounds of nature around me, clear up my mind and clean up the creaks of my Heart. Too much of anything can be a drag, especially music. When I listen to a song I feel it, I empathize with the sentiments or lyrics of the music, I supplement it with my imagination. That can be troublesome sometimes because how I feel is usually tangled up with how I think; thoughts and feelings are both formed from the same substance, just moving at different octaves. When I listen to a song about love, and feel the music, my mind fills itself reflectively with the closest thing to love it knows. If the closest thing is someone I really need to let go of, the association between the feeling of love and the thought of that person, my filtered perception of them too, will be all the more tangled with one another. All because of my desire to feel with the music rather than my honest wish to feel more loving with that person. Love only grows in the light, the present you and your partner share in real life. Not in our imagination. Living out our love for someone in our imaginations, especially as a means of escape from the daunting vulnerability of living our love in real life sucks. Running laps in our minds about a crush will have us too exhausted to actually hang out and be intimate with them.